3 posts tagged “art”

Referring to my previous posts in which i stated a) i make art to cheer people up and to make them happy and b) .....what was it again? I forgot. Maybe it was using art as some kind of platform to send messages, but that is the same as making people happy. Anyway.

Beceuase .....BECAUSE (this is not a justification post!!!) it is important to know why you do stuff, otherwise it goes meaningless. And also this is for cleaning my brain from thoughts which are confusing and don't lead me to the right direction. So this is for me and those who are curious.

Time for self-reflexion muahahaha.

Why do i make art.
Why do i use it as my communication platform,
message platform,
self-expression platform,
talking without words (though i include words anyway because i'm comic-influenced).

Do i have to make art?
What is art in subject?
Is it that important i spend the most time of my life thinking about art and making art?
Is it really neccessary? Is it useful?

How art works

1) Fact is i use art for a) self-expression and b) message system.
2) These functions are kind of connected, since what i express from my views and experiences and ideas and connotations/feelings directly leads from self-reflexion into an art piece which redirects these visual communication to the viewers.
3) Fact is also i'm not always intending something. Sometimes it's just the subject of the picture which is so wonderful, not the picture itself. The picture is the transforming platform to show these subjects/objects to other people.
4) I find it interesting how this communication system works since it's kind of uniform and complex at the same time.
5) Because it's not just about decoration (it is not in any case actually) but about technical and scientific experiments, which are of course not professional, but the different ways of making art are sure not trivial and there are certain ways of portraying various ....stuff. Even taste and smell and such. Because of the science of perception psychology. Has something to do with shapes and colors and connotations and such. Induction sense for example.
6) Also art has something to do with observation. When i want to express a happy smile, on the one hand it's expression of joy and message to cheer someone up (because of the human communication stuff), and on the other hand it's transferring an observation and sort of reporting it.
7) Art is intuitive science. That's it.

My perception of art itself

What i call art. Art is actually kind of everywhere; it depends on the point of view. And some people might understand what i mean when they watch random streets or the way nature develops/grows seemingly random. In fact there are many millions and billions of different points of view because everytime you move with your eyes, a new perspective comes out. It's something about biological perception with our eyes, but just this one......(So actually sculptures are like a thousand paintings from all possible points of view).
Because everything in the world consists of something. Maybe it's really atoms and molecules. So. And everything is created. The biggest creator in the world is God, and i am one of his pieces of art. Because art is creation in a trivial sense. And vice versa. So you see art everywhere and it's not locked up in museums.
Probably it's true that God created his creatures/humans somehow in his image; however humans tend to create things themselves in a world which is created.
A creation is not only craftswork like building a chair or something (i love craftwork/handwork), it's also a creation when you can't actually see the result with your eyes. But we have other senses like brain and heart. A good idea ....any idea is already art. You see i have a wide definition of art; but i don't think art is random.
Because. If anything is art what we create, then there's still categories if the art is good or stupid. Whether it makes sense and is helpful or if it's just repetition and not very ....useful. Good things are always useful (even if it's useful to make you smile).
I think art should be original and special. It's not a thing of tradition and something anonymous; in my context and understanding art is something very special and precious.
Art is not necessarily hard work. Art is what you achieved with all your powers, but art is also the small doodle you made.
Art is to take aspects from reality and show it with your point of view. Reality is not your artwork, because the subject you portray is already God's artwork and if your art consists of showing only reality, i think there's not much content to it. Something different though is when i say, not the subject i PORTRAY is wonderful but the SUBJECT i portray is wonderful. But this is a discussion about WHY the artwork is nice and such.....
I think i forgot something.

Why i make art
 
Obviously i think art is senseful. And it has meaning, which might not be visible for everybody in the first hour.

If art is decoration, art is senseless.
But drawing pictures is like writing a letter. In any case, you can even combine words and images. (Comic art woohoo.) (Go go Scott McCloud lol.) I'd like to sometime mix visual art with musical art. Because musical art consists a lot of lyrical art anyway. Let's see what my potential abilities allow and how i can widen them.

I can't point out why i started to make art and why i didn't quit yet, but art is apparently no job or occupation i can quit. Or want. I don't quite know why children start to draw. Maybe they are self-reflecting, or reproducing something, or  handle things or incidents.
Maybe they're also fascinated by creating an own world on paper. When i was younger i always imagined how wonderful it'd be if the stuff i draw would become reality. 8D Maybe this is even connected to the imaginary friends phenomenon.
However, i remember that my grandma sometimes drew animals for us when we were small kids. I loved it. I wanted to do the same. And when i was like 7, i started to knowingly love cartoons and Anime. The Anime and Manga came to Germany and my world was flooded with comics. I also loved Nintendo. I believe this generation is very influenced with comics and video games. Which i appreciate. (Some others may call it trivial art or something, but i believe this art field is promising and interesting. People identify with it. I don't know why i identify with cartoons more than with naturalistic drawings, .....McCloud explained it with the fact that we all have only a vague image of our own face and expression in our mind....or something like that.....)

So i'm used to Manga art from the beginning. It's obvious that i didn't quit because i was developing (with) my drawings. Fun with drawing coupled with fun with improvement and developing. And nothing was conscious.

What would happen if i quit art.
Let's say, quit being consciously productive myself.
From my recent point of view it's impossible anyway lol. But the biggest loss would be.....the reflecting platform. I'd be lost in harsh reality and couldn't relax (because my belief is weak).

So art is distraction from the harsh truths? Is it hiding? Probably i really need it for putting my thoughts and stuff into some outlet and get it out of my brain (what am i doing right now, guess lol). But i let go the belief of being brain-damaged and psychologically ill. (Because if it were the psychologists, also normal people are psychologically damaged.)

Another aspect is i'm addicted to internet. When i painted a picture, i can't help but scan it or make a photograph and put it online. a) I want to share it and because people are telling me it makes them happy and b) i want to have feedback. Not only because i want to improve (because i improve automatically even if nobody tells me mistakes.......constructive criticism, you're a fairytale lol), but also because i actually want to hear that i made something good and something usual and that i'm in fact a good girl. Of course it's like honey for the soul and the ego if i receive friendly comments. (Even though i'm sometimes sick of them because too much honey is too much.) But i love your comments. Attention: Not because i love you, but because i love to be loved.

I'm being honest. Yosh.
And probably i like to give the love back because i hope to receive something back; put it simply i want the love system to work properly. And don't tell me being egoist is healthy, because it obviously is not XD. But i'm not only egoist, because it's not a lie that i like to see people happy. We could discuss about whether it's egoism to see others happy only to be happy oneself, but that's not the matter now.

My art is my wish.
My art is my dream and vision.
My art is my idea.
My art is my world.
My art is my communication with you.

In fact i hate humans; i don't like eye contact (because looking someone into the eyes is so deep). If you know me in person and how i behaved all the years in school, you know that i'm extremely shy. But my secret love for the people grows with the years and i became more relaxed in school. But still, for example i can't handle children. And it could happen i can talk to you for hours, while it also could be that i'm tongue-tied with you. Maybe you like to communicate without words, but if i'm not talking to you it's a bad sign, i tell you XD. (Internet is something different though and i consider myself a quite normal person by now.)
But for some strange reason, my main topic are humans. Human expression, human feeling, it's what i communicate with in my art.

So if i couldn't make art anymore (i honestly fear to lose my eyes.......though probably i'd make blind art then;....). Then it would be a lot more difficult to handle people for me. Because i can't really say everything. Not only because of my bad expression skills with words. (Always using words with the slightly wrong meaning and such....)

It may sound wierd, but apparently i make art because i love humans. (Yes, i'm contradicting myself...kind of....) Humans in particular and the world and the reality, however you call it, in general.

It makes even sense, because humans are God's art and probably my motivation of making art is like......it's like a child wants to do the same as his father or something. Yeah, i'm a bad child, but no matter what, i still know it.

Oh, i'm surprised my thoughts indeed found an outcome while i was writing :o

What is the most important thing in my life

I guess the most time of my life i was making art.

I know that actually i wanted God/Christ to be the main thing in my life. But looks like i fled from him when the art field was growing kind of smaller. I was/am just too stupid to couple art with God. Or God with art. (It's not impossible, by the way.)

I'm even not yet 20 years old. What i have....values, moral values, principles, points of view, maybe ideals, ......i don't know whether they are so important. But indeed they help me to construct some system of reality. And it feels kind of robust til now. But when i start to work and being independent from my parents, i will probably experience something like limit.
Like, what i want to do does not equal what my customers or my chef want me to do. For example the contents of my art. Nowadays something must be measured whether it will sell or not. And i don't know. I'm really not agreeing to many wide-spread opinions. Hopefully i will find nice people who support me -_-.

Probably people are very important to me. Not only in the meaning that i kind of like them, but i'd feel extremely lonely to be alone. I don't even want to move to another place if i don't know anybody there. Of course the human race is a social race. They live together.
So it's not just art surrounding me, but the art is the product of my environment, like the stuff inside my brain and the stuff i experience outside. People, nature, media, other art, thinking process, lyrics, music, biological visual perception, and others, something like vague knowledge from school, and so on......

However, my most important issue must have something to do with the goal of my life. And i won't find out what it is, and whether art is really so important for me, when i can't point at my goal in life/existence. And because as long as i'm fleeing from Christ i lose sight of my goal, and without him i can't achieve it because it's connected to him.

Don't worry, this lyrical self-reflexion was not pointless, but.................

I guess i can't finish my thoughts as long as i'm fleeing from God. But honestly i don't want to go out of my hiding place. :x

Merry Christmas (and remember whose birth you are celebrating.....it's not Masaki Aiba's by the way.). And don't try to convert me to something ^_~. Thank you for reading this far. You must be really curious lol. Yesh, public, because i don't care.